sadly i have gained two pounds in the same amount of time that i could have lost it. i am very disappointed in myself.ggrr!!! and i tried running on the treadmill today but i ended up getting really mad at it because it's really old and screwed up so i started jumping on it really hard and then just decided to stop. tomorrow morning my dad is getting a new thingy for me to use to lose weight. I hope it works.

so tomorrow i HAVE  to get back on track!!! here's my food plan for tomorrow..

breakfast: special k bar- 90 cal
lunch: apple- 57 cal (i think)
dinner:  bowl of ceral- about 200 cal
snacks: lots and lots of water!!!!!

stay strong everyone! you'all can do it! =]

so  it's been a while since i've last been here and since then i have kinda started eating normally? But i havent gained any weight. I feel lousy thought and fat and disgusting. =[ i dont even wanna know how many calories i've had today.

 fucking pissed! it's like my body literally reffuses to lose weight! i've walked 4 miles and gained a pound..i dont know what to do! i was one pound away from my goal, now i'm 2 pounds away and this is just making me depressed which is making me want to eat!  i'm jsut gonna have to study for my drivers test...

 Stayed home from school today because i really didnt want to go and i wanted to exercise. Plus, my boyfriend wasn't gonna be at school and he's like all i have so id dint wanna go. i think my dad knows i'm faking it though. :( it's only morning but i've lost one pound by not eating anything and walking like 2 miles. yay me! now i'm about one pound away from my first goal weight.  today my major goal is to lose that one more pound. i decided that i was gonna burn 200 calories every other hour and that should help me out a lot! so excited! i'm gonna have a half a bagel and cream cheese for lunch(195 cal) The i think i will have yogurt or something for dinner.

so i did good today and yesterday.stayed at my 500 cals a day. yesterday i did a lot of exercising and felt great afterwards! this morning i jogged for about 20 mins and then i didnt eat anything and i thought i was okay but then at school is was so dizzy and tired and i needed my boyfriends help to keep me standing. So i went to the nurse and said i had a headache and so she let me go home when i said it wasnt getting any better.  So at least i don't have to worry about eating the rest of the day. i did eat a special k bar and my calcium supplement this morning(110 cal) then when i got home i had like a whole freakin pack of saltine crackes. the calories wern't as bad as i thought though. so it's 2:49 and i'm at 245 calories. not to bad.

So some of my family members are in town and a had to go out to eat with them.  This morning i had one of those special K bars(90 cals) and i was like okay i'll be good for this out to eat thing, i'll just have a salad. so that what i did and i was feelin pretty good about myself and then i get home to check the calories and it's like 493 effin cals!!! so i basicly went over my 500 cals a day. So disappointed in myself right now. : /

 I'm new!! =] Please be my friend.